Memories

My comment: we had such long conversations for months during 2008-9.....but you didn't come to India due to some reasons. You were very wise even at the age of 17 but it all ended.....hope you remember wherever you are....must be in 30s now :-)

And you have set my standards very high. 

Thanks for introducing Nisargdatta Maharaj: 

Wisdom and Love: "When I look inside and see that I am nothing, that is wisdom. When I look outside and see that I am everything, that is love. Between these two, my life turns".

The Power of Self-Love: "The only thing I plead of you is to make your love of yourself perfect".

And also Ramesh Basekar to me: 

Ramesh Balsekar (1917–2009) was a prominent Indian spiritual teacher of Advaita Vedanta (non-duality) and a former President of the Bank of India. He is best known for his modern, practical interpretation of non-dualism, which he simplified for a global audience through daily talks in his Mumbai home. 

Few Glimpses out of hundreds of chat sessions: 

Nov 2008: 

Friend: 

just had such a strong will..to run away with you,have enough money to live together wherever we want, not depending on unaware people...

Dec 2008: 

Friend: 

a. hi, sorry for bothering you!

i was just emptying my box and found a beautiful poem by Tiutchev(russian poet). then i found the translation. here you go:

Separation has this lofty meaning:

 if love lasts years,

 if but a day it takes,

 love's just a dream

 and we're a moment dreaming,

 and whether early, whether late the waking,

 the time must finally arrive when we awake.

b. in the end of the movie there is a beautiful song by bob marley..." emancipate urselves from mental slavery, no one but ourselves can free our minds, have no fear for atomic energy coz non of it can stop the time...how long shall they kill our prophets while we stand aside and look..." and so on- a beautiful song

c. 

and they lived forever in the moment dissolved in the universe with their endless love (< her name>&rohit's movie)

d. 

love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hug to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

e. 

i love you Rohit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jan 2009: 

Friend: 

a. wonderful! it's raining :) everything is so beautiful! i think about you and smile :)

b. ...even if i could find the solution and gave it to you, you would not

appreciate it,because we never appreciate things we get easily... But

i can tell you,my friend, that there's no You and the Problem as two

separate things... it's all one... i hope these words will reach the

depths of your understanding,even if you are in the middle of your

work now :)

i wish you to be blissful and happy!

c. one has to accept All things, if he/she wont...the same things will be chasing him/her from life to life

d. i am your lover dear Rohit! but i cant belong to one person, i know it now. i am for all people.accept it :)by open i meant that i dont hide anything from you.but you are so concentrated on your little dreams that you see nothing.

e. hi, daaaaaaaarrrrlllllllliiiiiiiiiiiiiinggggggggg!

f. 

  there is no time

time exists in mind only

and outer time we know is just a reflection of our inner time

when we understand that there's no time we become eternal

when we are eternal, we don't live in present or past, or in future because all those are sides of time, are parts of illusion.

eternity means no time

if there's no time there's no death and no fear, because you don't compare...

time is a cage

timelessness is freedom

the feeling of eternity is almost like a feeling of living in a present moment but still it's a bit different.

it's much deeper

the more you comprehend that truth the more flowers of eternity your heart is blossoming with

time and mind exist together

the more timeless you become the more mind gets retired

because mind is an illusion and it exists only tied up with another illusion

clocks people invented are just a reflection of clocks in our minds

a mind cant live without time. time cant live without mind

timelessness is freedom

timelessness is when you know that nothing can be repeated

eternity means that you can give give and give and there never will be the end to it.

beggining and end are limits

their absence is something mind cant understand because it's limited in itself... "

April 2009: 

Friend: 

No, no, questions are never stupid!

:-)

On the contrary, i am grateful, that you listen with your heart.!

Much Love. :)

May 2009:

Friend: 

Dear Rohit, how are you?

Having fingers crossed for you for tomorrow. All power of my heart is with you!

It all will be alright, it is just a dream, you know. Remain yourself

everywhere with anyone and may your heart be in peace and clarity!

June 2009 :

Friend : 'I wish to live in a world where everyone is always'

Me : Me too....but it changes fast...people changes...everything changes...... you never know when a person will turn hostile or leave you. :-)
It's more obvious when one meets many people.

Friend : I enjoy your way of talking

Me : this is the way a Buddha talks...haha!

Anyway, the only way to remain unaffected with change and feel as if nothing changes is to detach oneself from all that which changes.

Friend : Thats a task for a lifetime, dear :)

Me : really? Isn't it just about being aware & enjoy inner bliss.....just a moment is needed!

Friend : Ah, i am smiling, so cool!

Oct 2009: 

Friend: Who loses the awareness? Sincerety and strength are needed, to keep the "I" thought in the head no matter what. Strength comes when it must, until then suffering, anger will continue. Who wants them to stop? As Ramesh Balsekar said " The power that started the search will bring you where it has to. Why worry? Why want that thirst to stop? "

Me: True! All is suffering without love / awareness. But one must be earnest enough to decide to be aware as nisargdatta suggests.

So, i'm just watching myself....my desires and fears.....sometimes i give up to them but then i realize that it only brings more suffering.

i keep reading ( osho, nisargdatta, ramesh etc. ) that if you accept everything as it is then nothing else is needed....so, better not to fight with suffering too.....better not to ask for anything and accept even hell.

Friend: 

:))))))))) I agree

 

Will you let me to share that I've read Ramana saying......I liked that example very much. He said that cross on which Jesus was hanged is ego....and that it dies slowly..that's why so much suffering....But one day, it is dropped off...and you are resurrected as Jesus was.

Me: 

Karl talks like Nisargdatta i feel

anyway, interesting answer by Karl :

Can you say something about the relationship between man and woman? It seems to promise so much but contains so much pain. Is there any possibility of a true liberation through relationships?

The question is: Is there one who has a relationship and the necessity of liberation? The desire for every union (oneness) is based on the idea of separation. Can something which originates from a lie lead to truth? Can that which is dependent, by its nature dead, subject to time, make you what you are? Where the idea of oneness arises, there is twoness; by uniting is separated, and all comes and goes with something false, the "I". So, back to the root, to the question: To whom or in what does this "I" appear?

Friend: 

Yes, yes.......thank you...I have read it in russian in his book :)

 

"To whom this/that thought or desire appears?" This is the main question..Then comes the answer "To me.". Well then "who am I? " And here...............silence.....All desires and thoughts are blown up by that.